For from His fullness we have all received, grace upon grace. John 1:16

Friday, March 25, 2011

"a decent hour"

it is 4:39pm here and my husband is not home.  he, innocently, told me earlier today that he would be leaving at "a decent hour."  i have no idea what "a decent hour" means, and i like it that way.

not long ago, with lots of prayer and arguing with myself, i decided to not be so avid about knowing the exact time when my husband would be arriving home.  this was NOT an easy choice!  2:00pm would mean 3:00pm, 4:00pm would mean 6:00pm, half-a-day would mean 5:00pm or later, and so forth.

when he did arrive home, he was half-greeted by a wife with steam shooting from her ears.  i would have spent the entire time between when he said he would be home and when he actually got home allowing myself to get upset and angry, then more upset and angrier, until the hurt feelings consumed my thoughts and actions.

please do not take this post the wrong way.  i trust my husband and know his intentions are always good.  and i know that when he finishes at work, he will come home to us.  simply, the demands and responsibilities of his job are immense, and just walking away is not always possible.

i now recognize that i was not angry at him.  i was angry that a certain time did not end up the actual time and that the hopes in my heart of seeing him sooner were not reality.  see, there is an enemy and he wants to damage my marriage, but my husband is NOT him.  and, instead of being responsible for my own feelings, i wanted to blame my husband and, unintentionally, allowed the notion of exact timing to become a wedge in our marriage.

so what?  well, not knowing an exact time gives me the freedom to assume that he is not coming home early.  and, when he does come home early, i am wonderfully surprised.

now, when talking about our day, i have to interrupt my husband and remind him that i do not want to know when he will be arriving home from work!

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Jesus is the same today,
as He was yesterday,
as He will be tomorrow.

"In the beginning, O Lord, you laid the foundations of the earth, and the heavens are the work of your hands.  They will perish, but you remain; they will all wear out like a garment.  You will roll them up like a robe; like a garment they will be changed.  But you remain the same..."  Hebrews 1:10-12

Monday, March 21, 2011


Katharine Hepburn says, "If you obey all the rules, you miss all the fun." ladyBug could not agree more...

Friday, March 18, 2011

"fowers for you"

sweetPea has officially given his first bundle of "fowers" to his girl!  

yesterday, while playing outside, sweetPea picked white "fowers" and brought them to me!  they were, of course, the most beautiful, colorful bundle of weeds that i have ever seen!  he ran over, shouting, "fowers for you!"

i watched him delight in the giving of his gift!  and i cherished the little moment.  as his mommy, i am his first girl.  but, all too soon, he will love another and hold her blessed hand, and she will receive his heart.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

JAPAN - serving His people

the lives of His people in Japan have been forever changed from the devestating earthquake and tsunami, more losses are imminent, and countless significant challenges lie ahead.  please join me in praying for the people of Japan...

About the country:

population - over 127 million people in the country (tenth largest nation in the world).

economy - third largest after China and the USA, specializing in electronic and automotive exports. low unemployment rate of 4.9%. highest national debt of any modern, industrialized nation.

government - constitutional monarchy, a monarchy in which the powers of the ruler are restricted to those granted under the constitution and laws of the nation.

religion - a combination of Shintoism and Buddhism is practiced by 84%. Christianity, Islam and Sikhism followers comprise 3% of the population.

Ways to serve the people of Japan:

PRAY - prayer is the greatest gift that the people of Japan can use right now

GIVE - give through your local church or other organization, Samaritan's PurseSalvation Army, American Red Cross

"And the Holy Spirit helps us in our weakness.  For example, we don't know what God wants us to pray for.  But the Holy Spirit prays for us with groanings that cannot be expressed in words.  And the Father who knows all hearts knows what the Spirit is saying, for the Spirit pleads for us believers in harmony with God's own will."  Romans 8:26-27

Wednesday, March 16, 2011


Historic Rutherford County Courthouse
on March 16, 2002, i walked down the aisle as a beaming bride, and i married my man.  i specifically remember seeing the tears well in his eyes with each step that i took.

how fast the time has gone.  we have experienced highs and lows.  walked some easy paths and stumbled on hard paths.  God has used us to shape each other and brought the best out when our worst is dominate.  our love will continue to mature, drenched in God's forgiveness and grace, and we rejoice to see how the next years will unfold.

Us (taken by ladyBug)

Monday, March 14, 2011

crying over spilt...

i have heard the saying many a time, "crying over spilt milk."  well, this morning i cried over spilt dog food.  after helping the little ones get dog food from the pantry, i slipped, dog food in hand, wedging myself in between the pantry door and the counter, spilling dog food across the floor.  i spilt the dog food on the same floor where i just (seconds ago) vacuumed.  then, once retrieving the cup full of small pieces, i spilt it again.  and i cried.

in the grand view of life spilling dog food is not a biggie.  tomorrow i will even look back in laughter, but, in that moment, it seemed so big.
i live life as if Jesus' sacrifices aren't enough.

Thursday, March 10, 2011

take heart!

"Tough times never last but tough people do."  ~ John Thomas "Spider" Salley

i find it so hard to be tough on my own.  to hold up the walls crashing in on me.  to be everything to the ones who need my all.  to shine in darkness.  to be courageous when my weakness is stronger.  to be amongst others and yet walk alone.

no disrespect to Mr. Salley, BUT maybe it should read...Tough times never last but God's grace, and strength within us, do.

"In this world you will have trouble.  But take heart!  I have overcome the world."  John 16:33

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

leaning on my own understanding

God's love is inexhaustible, unfathomable, and beyond human description.  He is God of the universe.  Creator of the heavens.  the Everlasting God.  He is Lord over all.

yet, most days, i do not come before Him out of love or respect, in awe or reverence.  instead, i come out of a feeling of obligation or desperation, purely selfish motives.

i have a foolish view of time spent with my Savior and have foolishly failed to hold that time sacred. it is He who is all sufficient, the One who helps me at each break of day.  from Him comes wisdom, knowledge and understanding.  He is my refuge and strength.  God and only God can direct my path.

so why do i continue to lean on my own understanding!?!

"May my meditation be pleasing to him, as I rejoice in the Lord."  Psalm 104:34

"...offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God - this is your spiritual act of worship."  Romans 12:1