For from His fullness we have all received, grace upon grace. John 1:16

Wednesday, March 12, 2014


: a state of noisy confusion or disorder

: a state of great mental or emotional confusion

A word is dead
When it is said,
Some say.

I say it just
Begins to live
That day.

~Emily Dickinson 1894

Wednesday, February 19, 2014

Why not you?

are you wondering, "Why me?"

well, "Why not you?"

God knows where you've been, who you are, and where you are going. you are beautiful to Him. even when uninvited, He is there. He continually cares for you. nothing thwarts His plan for you. He loves you. oh, how He loves you.

He wants you to accept His free gift of life. the battle is already won. Victory already established. He will give you great strength and great joy. He will grant you the desires of your heart and will not withhold the requests of your lips.

He will embrace you with His presence and grant you eternal blessings. you can trust Him. His unfailing love is with you. you will not be shaken.

Sunday, February 9, 2014

Philip Seymour Hoffman

i'm saddened by the death of Philip Seymour Hoffman. not because i liked him as an actor or because i'm going to miss seeing him in the movies. honestly, i didn't remember who he was until i saw his picture. but still i am disturbed by his passing.

Philip was 46 years of age and "busy as ever and secure in his standing as one of the world's greatest actors...Fearless in his choices, encyclopedic in his preparation, he was a Shakespearean performer in modern dress, bringing depth and variety" to his characters as described in a KVUE news article. he is adored and beloved by family and friends. he is loved and cherished by his Savior.

grievously, his battle was on the inside. he struggled with addiction. he often spoke candidly about it. and after being sober for 23 years, he began using again - this time at the cost of his own life.

that is the hardest part for me. he didn't have to die. not at his own hands. he didn't have to die. it didn't have to end. his life didn't have to end. it didn't. it just didn't.

he was snatched from this world. he was left searching for more.

if you are struggling, no matter how much or for what reasons, or wondering if this life has more to offer you, i beg you from the depths of my heart, don't be left searching for more. seek God. seek Him for the answers to your questions. seek Him to fill the emptiness, to wipe away guilt and shame, to give you rest, to bring you joy, to give you strength, to show you real love.

"I am the bread of life; he who comes to Me will not hunger and he who believes in Me will never thirst." John 6:35

there is hope. you are not alone. you are loved and cherished by God. His strength and power are enough. you are special to Him. not because of what you do or have done but because of what God has done for you. His gift of love is true. His gift of love is free, unconditional, never ending. and you can never be snatched out of His hand.

"My Father, who has given them to me, is greater than all; and no one is able to snatch them out of the Father's hand." John 10:29

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

Pardon My Mess!

Hi Friends!  

As you can see, this blog is currently under construction. I've been away for over a year! And there's way more to share about last year than one post could hold. So, please bear with me. Over the next few weeks, I will be changing things around and figuring out fun ways to update you. I promise stories and pictures are coming soon...

*picture found in Google images

Saturday, September 15, 2012

piano girls

for as long as i can remember, i have wanted to play the piano. i love everything about it...the look, the sound, the feel of the keys. the piano is one of those instruments that, when i hear it playing, i must close my eyes and listen. it awakens something in my soul.

now, confession time...i have no idea how to play the piano.

but, lately, i have had the opportunity by playing with my girls as they practice piano. the girls began taking piano lessons about five months ago. and i enjoy getting to learn alongside them! while i may never play a recital or even play very well...i am having fun as i "tickle the ivories."

La la la de de da
la la de de da da dum

at our first recital in May 2012

Can you play me a memory
I'm not really sure how it goes
But its sad and it's sweet and I knew it complete
When I wore a younger man's clothes

ladybug played two songs, Wind in the Trees and The Shepherd's Flute

sunshine played, The Old Clock

the songs are Primer Level songs. both girls were really nervous and played very softly
but it was beautiful! they had only been playing the songs for about a month
and were brave to play their first recital so soon.

La la la de de da
la la de de da da dum

Mrs. Kim, our piano teacher

surprise flowers for Mrs. Kim

La la la de de da
la la de de da da dum

Well, we're all in the mood for a melody
And you've got us feelin' alright

song excerpts from Piano Man by Billy Joel

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

paper heart

found in Google images
have you ever experienced true love? the kind that does not hold contempt and knows no boundaries.

get real!?! this is a crazy careless world, full of crazy careless people. besides, true love is not for you. right? 

i know that my heart has been ripped apart and left behind by people i trusted the most, people from whom i yearned to receive unconditional love. 

out of a broken world comes broken people who pass on their brokenness. and what i have come to realize is that we have a choice. yes, we do. we can either continue this legacy of brokenness or set a new one in motion.

there is true love for you. there is a love that does not hold contempt, no matter what we have done or where we have been. a love that knows no boundaries. a love that never ends. a love so real! 

God's love is greater than our torn hearts, greater than our brokenness. He is the Seamstress that picks up the pieces of our torn and scattered dreams and mends our paper hearts. 

i am clinging to His love. and He has set anew my life and the legacy that i will leave behind. God has written His name on my paper heart! and He will write His name on yours!

My Paper Heart, Francesca Battistelli

Well I’ve been treated like a valentine
That’s been ripped apart and left behind
I’m a fragile girl
In a crazy careless world
My dreams were torn and scattered on the floor
But You’ve been picking up the pieces, Lord
‘Cause Your love is real
The only hope to heal
My paper heart is Yours now
I have landed in Your hands
Come so far to find out
My life will never be the same
Since you wrote Your name
On my paper heart
I had been so terrified to trust
So many times I’d been reduced to dust
But You keep showing me
You’re the safest place to be
Never knew that I could feel the way I feel
Never knew that there could be a love so real
Never knew that I could feel the way I feel right now